This whole week, just everything leading up the holidays, all feels very rough and raw. I love being with friends, and family, but I’m having a hard time swallowing life without Kevin. Everytime I think of it, it just absorbs any happiness I’m feeling. It sucks!
I thought, being 2 months past, that I’d at least have some coping, but not really. I just have no good way to deal with the moments when I realize he’s not coming back. That’s going to take a very long time.
First Christmas without Kev: Done. Thank God.
Now, onto New Years, starting my new job, doing my taxes early, applying for financial aid, meeting with my school advisor about looking into a major change (looking deeply into Nuclear Medicine Technician-I’ll post more about this later), superbowl (GO STEELERS), our 3rd anniversary on February 3rd, living life, Kevin’s birthday on April 7th..and then what? Lots of things in between there to deal with…I’m just stressed.
But I’ll get through. Keep praying for my sanity, and that I can find some time to focus on writing this book. I really want to delve into it.
Love you all…praying for your Christmastime to be special and lovely.
BIG SHOUT OUT: Congrats to Laura and Stu on their engagement. I’m so happy for you both!